Being raised in the church, I have heard several sermons on the word "worthy". Most pastors would say that we, as God's children, are UNworthy. UNworthy of the love, power, HIS presence, and all the other "gifts" that our Lord has place before us. Therefore, I have gone through life literally thinking that I was unworthy. To me, life as a christian was to live in defeat. In grade school I felt that I was UNworthy to have a lot of friends; one should do. In high school I felt like I was UNworthy of the accomplishments that I received and even UNworthy of the people that God had placed in my life. When I found out that I was pregnant with Seth, Rick went out and bought me (or us) a new Expedition. It was beautiful and just perfect for us. I loved it, but when I referred to it I called it a "truck" because I didn't want anyone to think I thought I was better than anyone else. There is that "UNworthy" word popping up agian. Looking back, I did that a lot.
Rick taught me, in that lesson, that I AM worthy. It has taken several years for that to sink in. I am worthy of HIS love, HIS forgiveness, HIS grace, HIS mercy and YES....HIS BLESSINGS. I want everything God has for me on this earth. So, I now accept every spiritual blessing, every financial blessing, every emotional blessing and every friend blessing. I want to live for the Lord and IN the Lord, not in defeat. I am not say that "I deserve" any of these blessings because it is ONLY by the GRACE OF GOD that I live, breathe and have my being. My Father went to the cross with me, Sherry Lynn Jefferson McLaughlin on His mind and on His heart, so why in the world would I not accept his blessings? I am worthy simply because He made me and I am HIS child.
Psalm 139:14 (New International Version)
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well."
